The Divine Diva Sings Her Emotions...

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To some, this quote may mean nothing, but to me, this is one of the saddest… but true: “THE ONLY PERMANENT THING IN THIS WORLD IS CHANGE!” Let me start this from how my year 2005 wonderfully and amazingly began until it came to a point that I felt so low. Now, let us say I’m in my recovery stage (with the help of God of course, my church friends, my family, my “true” friends in the real essence of the word, and my new officemates):

January

1. “Thesis mode” most of the time, yet still can’t get student activities out of my system! Active-active-an pa rin sa orgs, simply because I love what I was doing as well as the CSB friends I was working with.



2. Rehearsal days for “Tabi-Tabi Po” (entry to the 2nd Crossroads Theater Festival) everyday from 6-9 PM (with Starbucks coffee and tsismisan sessions afterwards). It was my first time to direct, so it wasn’t easy! But thanks to the support of so many friends and loved ones (both financially and emotionally). It came to a point when the other three productions were against us, but I just don’t wanna elaborate on that further. Rehearsals for theater productions were one of the best and worst moments in my life as an artist.



February

1. I consider this as my “UNEXPECTED ACHIEVEMENTS MONTH”! All in one month, these things happened. Hold on to your seats (hehe!):
a. I reached the average of a Cumlaude (3.533)!
b. I was chosen to deliver the graduation speech at the PICC
c. “Tabi-Tabi Po” won as the Best Play for the 2nd Crossroads Theater Festival
d. I won as the Best Director for the same festival
e. I got the "Best Arts Management Thesis" Award!



2. Life with CSB friends was so remarkable! Sunday adventures with two special friends still continued even after I graduated. Lenni, Cha, and I treated our beloved boy friends to a videoke bar in Malate for our graduation celebration. A special friend even texted me something like, “My life in CSB wasn’t the same without you! I miss you! I realized your importance all the more after you were gone!”



3. First time to go to Fontana courtesy of Nes. I was with Nes, Stacy (Nes’ sister), Jill and Chester (Nes’ blockmates). Di naman ba ‘ko O.P. niyan? I tell you, hindi po! It was one of my best escapades with new friends!







March

1. “ISSUE MONTH” because of supporting Nes for his campaign as the SC President of CSB! Care ko sa kanila? Basta “I believe in my friend!” ang drama ko those days ano man ang sabihin nila against him. I helped him in making the visions of his group, the campaign materials, and even in having their room-to-room campaign! I composed a campaign jingle (to the tune of the Coke jingle) for his group.



2. Celebrated my 22nd birthday on March 10 in Antel Seaview Towers with 10 chosen CSB friends (limited lang kasi). Halos lahat ng wishes nila was for me to have a good love life, kasi halos lahat daw na sa‘kin na! I don’t think so, pero ‘yun ang sabi nila! One thing to note, medyo na-offend ako sa “kanya” nung birthday ko, dahil wala man lang effort. But then, ‘di ko naman s’ya BF so ano magagawa ko? I didn’t have the right to demand. But naging okay naman kami after.

3. I had my Encounter God Retreat (EGR) in Tagaytay, and it was there that I asked for God’s forgiveness for my act of ignoring him all those days that I was high with happiness and achievements. Adjustment stage sa church, ‘coz I felt I missed so much during those times that I wasn’t always there (kinda felt O.P. sometimes kahit ‘di halata!).





April

1. Started looking for a job that I really want and where I can really practice my course. Mind you, it wasn’t easy to look for a job. Considering na I even graduated Cumlaude and I was an active student leader. Maybe because I was choosy! Pero promise, sa dami ng graduates in the Philippines, it was really hard! And honestly, I didn’t expect it since I graduated with flying colors. If I were to ask, I wanted to work in CSB sa OSA, or as a professor para less adjustments na lang, but there wasn’t any job opening at that time.

2. Constant “lakwatsa” and overnight bondings with C.H.A.N. (Cha, Henri, Andre, Nikki)! Ang saya-saya sobra!!!



3. I was very honored to be invited as one of the speakers/facilitators for CSB’s PLANS (Planning for Leaders and Artists Networking and Synergy) 2005 in Angel’s Hills Tagaytay. “Mother” even bought SUN SIM, so we could talk while they were there, only to find out I’ll be with them in Tagaytay rin pala! Being in Tagaytay with almost all my closest friends (Mother, Nes, Andre, etc.) was one of my best times. Thanks to the OSA peeps (esp. to Ms. Ces and Sir PJ) for believing in me!

4. Nes invited me to join and give a short talk during his meeting with his co-candidates in SC. I felt flattered, kasi training and inspiring future student leaders give me a sense of fulfillment.

5. There was this guy who kinda courted me before, but I didn’t like him, so ‘di ko inintindi. I just felt regretful about it, kasi I suddenly found him okay. But the bad thing is, ‘di na ako gusto n’ya! Haaayyy….

May

1. I got accepted in FPROS, Int’l in Tomas Morato, QC as a Sales & Marketing Head and Trainor for networking. I tried it for almost two months lang, but I didn’t see myself working there for long, so I resigned. Though I was flattered that they gave me a good position though I was a new graduate, ‘di ko talaga linya ang Sales at Marketing e.

2. I got a sideline – Tito Arnie of JCCM offered me a job to proofread the books they’re selling in ACTS Christian Bookstore. Nakakahilo lang, but at least I got to work even while sitting on my bed and watching T.V.!

3. Dahil sa SUN, medyo nagkaro’n kami ng petty quarrel ng isa sa mga pinakamamahal kong kaibigan! Malungkot sobra! I didn’t mean to hurt him, but I was accused of not being a supportive friend. Ako kasi, I’m more into “what is right” than into “what makes you happy” because I believe that if what you’re doing is right in the eyes of the Lord, He will bless you with happiness (I opted not to discuss into details our problem, dahil tsismis na ‘yon. Ano kayo, hilo? Hehe!).

June

1. I declare June as Nikki’s “I DON’T DESERVE THESE TRIALS MONTH”! First, one of my best friends became one of my worst enemies (though I wasn’t mad at him, he was the one mad at me for so many reasons that I didn’t mean to do)!

2. Second, the man I love (so, so much) knew my feelings for him. Though I didn’t want him to know it, because he’s one of my best friends, I had to tell him, because he courted someone else and of course, I had to let go. I didn’t cry the moment I knew it, but there was a time that I really burst into tears upon reminiscing on the memories we had. I even had more memories with him than with my ex-boyfriends, so it was really hard for me.

3. On June 5, Sunday at about 3:00 a.m., I had an intimate moment with the Lord (I accepted Him again as my personal Christ and Savior… it’s called the “Born Again” experience), which was triggered by too much depression with my close friends that I was slowly losing at that time. “Painful” says it all… so much!

4. Andre and I declared ourselves to be each other’s Best Friends.



July

1. “He” and I were back to normal after almost a month of ignoring each other because of the “courting” issue. Still, we were good friends, and I was so satisfied with how we were. Just like the old days (Sunday), we ate dinner, watched a movie together, and cried out our problems to each other until 4:00 am in Antel. I was so overwhelmed, esp. when he told me that I was the only one who knew all of those feelings that he revealed. I think he cried (I wasn’t sure ‘coz it was dark) and I also cried, because I was so sad seeing him that way. It melted my heart… his love issues, self-confidence issues, political issues, etc… How I wish I was still in CSB to support him.

2. Facilitated Art Link Student Organization’s (ALSO) teambuilding.



3. The other “he” was still mad at me, and it was a terrible feeling!

4. CCP and the Center for Pop Music called me at the same time and asked me for an interview. I was very excited, because finally, I’ll be having a job that I really like.

5. I passed the Graduate Studies exams in La Salle, Manila (Master of Arts in Teaching the English Language), but I didn’t push through because of my work in CCP.

August

1. August 5 was my first official day as an employee in CCP. I was very happy because out of so many applicants (some of them have years of experiences already), they chose me. I underwent a five-hour exam and a series of panel interviews, so I was so proud of it. I’m currently the Culture and Arts Officer II of the Music Division of the Performing Arts Department.





2. La Salle asked me to teach English, but my work schedule in CCP didn’t allow me to! I was so regretful of it! :(

September

1. I had a fight with “him” for the 3rd time, because of the “paasa” issue. I didn’t know whose fault it is more, but all I know is that we both committed mistakes. The only difference we had was, I usually forgive more easily than he does. As of the moment, it was our worst fight ever. It came to a point when we finally talked (as to my request), and indirectly, he told me that I was replaced in his life and that he doesn’t care if he loses me, so my heart finally hardened. The love is still there of course, but I don’t think I will be the one to approach him first this time. I got tired, maybe!

2. After my dinner together with the other “he” who was mad at me, I thought everything would already be fine, until he saw me with someone who was the cause of our “big” fight. He “fired” me with painful text messages that almost made me give up on him. But then, I still value friendship, so I just asked God to help me survive all of these with patience. ‘Di ko s’ya papatulan! Ayoko na!

3. Became a member of the CCP Chorale

4. I got my first salary from CCP on September 10!!!

5. It was my first time to perform in the CCP’s Main Theater with the CCP Chorale, Christian Bautista, Jona Lumbera, and Dulce for the Civil Service Commission’s 105th Anniversary Celebration!

6. I’ll be going to Malaysia on December for a Chorale Competition! I’m excited!!!

7. May crush na ’ko sa CCP (‘di naman major one, kilig lang!). Ayoko muna magmahal uli!:)

I expect GREAT things to happen in the last three months of the year. This has been a year of mixed emotions… natuwa, na-flatter, nagalit, naluha, nainis, nagselos, nag-init ang ulo, kinilig, na-overwhelm, na-touch, na-depress, etc…. So many changes took place. It was hurting, yet something to draw a lesson from. No matter what, what’s important is that…

Someday, someone will ask me how I lived my life when I was still young. I know that I will be able to answer them this: "I have walked my journey, have fought the battle, and overcame my falls. I’ve kept my GOD, I've kept my faith… it is what’s left in ME."

Ako rin ziggy and joriz, magma-market na rin a!:) hihi!:) Friends, this will be my first "serious" directorial job, so I hope you'll support me.. .:)

WHAT: Tabi-Tabi Po from Teatro Samahan
WHEN: February 18, 2005; 1 and 7 p.m.
WHERE: Augusto-Rosario Gonzalez Theater, De La Salle-College of St. Benilde

I received a text from someone last night that goes something like this... "I DID SOMETHING VERY, VERY RELAXING AND SOUL-GRATIFYING... I COUNTED MY BLESSINGS..."

It inspired me to think of all the major highlights of my 2004...

To start 2005 right, it's a good way to count all the blessings that Jesus showered upon me during the previous year...

Here are 110 of them...

2004 Highlights:

1. Had my SOFA (Students on Financial Assistance) scholarship renewed and maintained it for the whole year
2. Conceptualized and implemented projects for ALSO (Art Link Student Organization) as its Vice President-Internal and trainer
3. Got a GPA of a perfect 4.0 for two consecutive terms
4. Immersed at Botolan, Zambales for 2 ½ days as part of the BESTMADE Leadership Program
5. Had become an effective Student Trainer, especially to our BESTMADE “anaks” (that was according to them) :)
6. Became part of the LS2K4 (Lasallian 2004)
7. Had been one of the factors why Donna and Dianne Cerzo and their family continued to attend in JCCM
8. Got a major role during the Crossroads Theater Festival as “Nestra” and was nominated as the Best Actress (it was my first time to do serious theater acting)
9. First time to go inside a motel with friends (for “wholesome” reasons, mind you!:))
10. Planned surprises for STRAINS’ birthdays that made them happy
11. Organized and hosted campus tours and theater programs in CSB
12. Acquired basic knowledge in Adobe Photoshop 7.0
13. Interviewed and evaluated orientor applicants for the FOP (Frosh Orientation Program)
14. Received nice gifts from my blockmates and a nice surprise from the STRAINS for my birthday (cake, Yellow Cab pizza c/o Rex, balloons, giant Smiley pillow)
15. Valiumeals (Nikki, Doe, Potchi, Sjoni, Glenn, Ruffie) was born!
16. Was given an offer by a Technical Theater student to act in her movie project as “Nestra” (wasn;t able to do it due to time constraints)
17. Had mastered making the PPF (Project proposal forms), OSA papers, and documentations (alas!)
18. Attended summer acting, dancing, voice for stage, and theater improvisation workshops under Dulaang Filipino
19. Composed and sang the jingle for a running councilor in Valenzuela
20. Had my OJT (On-the-job training) at the National Museum of the Philippines and at the CCP (Cultural Center of the Philippines)
21. Appointed to be part of the Student Involvement Unit’s Preparatory Team (SIU PrepTeam)
22. Was assigned to Head the FACES Dramatic Guild of JCCM
23. Had conducted acting and voice for stage workshops for the members of FACES Dramatic Guild
24. Became part of four ministries in the church namely FACES Dramatic Guild, Information Ministry, Music Ministry, and Light Club
25. Attended the Pre-PLANS and PLANS (Planning for Leaders and Artists Networking and Synergy) as an ALSO interim officer and as a member of the SIU PrepTeam
26. Had my 2nd and 3rd Friendster accounts (hehe!:))
27. Worked on a lot of sponsors for the FSN (Frosh Solidarity Night)
28. Composed and sang the ALSO jingle for promotion
29. Had a nice song and verse for Madz’s debut
30. Became the Season 3 Champion of Videoke Peeps (hehe!:))
31. Got one of the major parts (Narrator) when auditioned for Joseph and the Amazing Technicolored Dreamcoat (but didn’t continue for personal reasons)
32. Organized the activities for the very successful teambuilding of ALSO
33. First time to see the La Salle Museum and Hiraya Gallery (for art’s sake… :))
34. Made two scripts for FACES’ skits and presentations
35. Became the Programme Head for the ORDES (Organizational Restructuring, Direction Evaluation and Strategic Planning) Council and Leadership Conference
36. Had the opportunity to talk face-to-face with and introduce Che-che Lazaro during the ORDES Council
37. First time to go to the Dep Ed (Department of Education)
38. Had a nice description for the yearbook and a nice graduation picture
39. Had been nominated as the Most Outstanding Volunteer during the Gawad Sinag Tala
40. Was invited to numerous debut parties by BESTMADE and ALSO "anaks" (and always part of the 18's...:))
41. Had read John Maxwell books on Leadership (but haven’t finished them)
42. Ms. Dayang offered me a job (but there was a time conflict)
43. Had a special bonding with ALSO members right after the teambuilding
44. Had come across with “Chestnut” during the switching and had him as one of my closest friends
45. “Cherrie” became one of my official nicknames.
46. Stopped labeling anyone as my “Best Friend”
47. First time to experience organizing a silent art auction
48. Got close to Toby after a year of just ignoring him in OSA
49. Had numerous Sunday adventures (Baclaran, Dampa, Tutuban, Taft, Ayala Heights, Libertad, Seaside, etc.)
50. First time to eat at Dampa and Seaside
51. Got over Sjon and even had the guts to tell him about my feelings for him in the past
52. Received my 3rd plaque for being a consistent Dean’s Lister
53. Had numerous hosting jobs in and out of the school (and I had to do the scripts for most of them)
54. Had numerous invitations to sing in and out of the school
55. Became very close to many of the organizations’ and student government's officers and even with artist groups from OCA (Office of Culture and Arts)
56. Made an article for ALSO that was published at Inq7.net
57. Became one of CSB’s representative during Bro. Armin’s Investiture at DLSU-Manila)
58. Was able to watch the Madz’s (Madrigal Singers) Homecoming Concert for free c/o of CCP's Artistic Director, Tata Nanding
59. Had walked around the CCP Complex with Chestnut at 5:00 a.m. (adventure!:))
60. Was able to watch a lot of rehearsals in CCP (Ballet Philippines, Tanghalang Pilipino, etc.)
61. Got close to Zhellah and Mommy Yolly
62. Had a very cute inaanak in the name of Jorel (he looks as if he’s my son… kaya nga cute e!:)), who is our Pastors' son
63. Dedoi and I declare ourselves to be “Invisible Friends” (seldom sees each other, but trusts each other a lot).
64. The Chichay, Sheryl, Cherrie trio was born (love u gurlfrndz!:))
65. Had numerous sleepovers at Cha’s condo (saya!:))
66. Antel condo has been my second home (thanks Ninang!:))
67. Providence tower had been CSB’s extension at some point with my ViP (Videoke Peeps)friends
68. Became one of the special writers for Blueprint’s Blueroom Magazine
69. Had been seen on TV a couple of times (Wazzup2, TV Patrol, Myx) and even in Manila Bulletin for the Malacañang gift-giving (even had a pic w/ Mikaela Gloria Arroyo) :)
70. First time to go inside the Malacañang Palace
71. Had been to Star City again after a long time
72. Was able to watch two effective Filipino horror movies in a year (Feng Shui and Sigaw). thank God!
73. Went to Enchanted Kingdom, but it was closed (grrrr…)
74. Had a nice surprise for my Bes and Chestnut for their birthdays (they were really touched)
75. Was able to see my closest guy friends’ houses (Dadi Tobs and Chestnut)
76. First time to go to La Salle, Greenhills
77. Discovered Eden Band during Burx’s debut and had given them two school exposures for the year.
78. Start of Saturday movie days w/ ViP friends
79. Had my Photobucket account
80. Started to have my Livejournal account
81. Found a celfone in school and returned it to the owner on the same day
82. Myx with ALSO was ALSO’s project that really made me cry, yet became so successful (Test Drive CD was suddenly launched!) :) EHFAR!!! :)
83. Became the official host for almost all of CoPs Week’s events
84. First time to go to Vivere during Grace’s debut
85. Became part of Close-up Whattamouth’s events
86. Was asked by Papa E to perform for “Ang Paglalakbay ni Tao” – CSB’s entry to the National Theater Festival
87. Got one of the major roles in “Tao” as Tao’s Nanay and had experienced singing, dancing, and acting for theater
88. First time to perform in CCP for “Tao” and got a lot of nice comments
89. Became a SUN subscriber, because of 24/7
90. Was forced to buy 6210 for P 2, 300.00 for my SUN Sim
91. Became part of the opening of the National Theater Festival (and even made the participants’ ID’s as part of my OJT)
92. Worked on the revisions of the SAM (Student Activities Manual)
93. First time to eat at the Solomon Guest House, Bulalo King, and Ming’s
94. Got a 4.0 for both Pracre 1 and Pracre 2
95. Had a car accident with Steve, Cha and Alvin at the Mc Kinley Road on our way to Samsung fone launching (first time to make an affidavit)
96. “Operation Distansiya” made me cry, but everything came back to normal after 2 days.
97. Started getting close with my new cutie crush by the name of “Kobi” (actually, this is just my code name for him)
98. Start of EHFAR (Everything Happens For A Reason) statement and the recently "Pay It Forward"
99. First time to witness a live drama taping at DZRH for Manforc class
100. Received three awards during Tao’s cast party at Dencio’s Grill (Regine Velazquez Award, “Labandera” Award, and Best Singer Award)... hehe!:)
101. Became one of the organizers of the CSB Christmas Concert, and sang “Sana Ngayong Pasko” with my gurlfrndz (may mali, but we got away with it, diba Luigi? hehe!:))
102. Was commended by Dean Torres of SDA for my good voice during the concert (thanks!:))
103. Internet connection to Lola’s phone (mwahaha!!!:))
104. Ninang of Sas (Andrew and Noelle’s son)
105. First time to accompany a friend to the airport (gawd, he almost didn’t make it to his flight!)
106. Was supposed to host and sing in a wedding (Ate Marie’s), but didn’t make it
107. Was commended by Sir Toto for a job well done in my thesis
108. One of the nominees for Arts Management’s Best Thesis
109. Almost considered as officially graduate! :)
110. Was asked by OCA to direct a play for the next Crossroads Theater Festival and by Sir PJ to work on a prestigious event (think of Asia Pacific... wow!) :)

With the help of my Savior and Creator, may 2005 offer a lot more lessons, challenges, adventures, exposures, and accomplishments for me...:)

Sir PJ: Nikki, when are you graduating?

Nikki: Sa February 19 na po kami mag-mamarch. Y po?

Sir PJ: Will u be busy during the 3rd term?

Nikki: I don't think so, except that we have to have a public presentation of our thesis. Aside from that, mukhang wala na po siguro. Y po?

Sir PJ: Kasi I wanna give you a project, a volunteer work. It's a prestigious one...

Nikki: Wow! Talaga po? Anong project po yan?

Sir PJ: I'll tell you when it's sure na! Basta prestigious. think of Asia Pacific...

Nikki: Wow! I'm getting excited. Thanks for the trust po. :)

Sir PJ: Okay. I think I'll be needing three more people WITH A CALIBER LIKE YOURS to help. You recommend.

Nikki: What skills do they need to possess po? I mean do they have to have good PR skills, good communication or writing skills? Para po alam ko who to recommend.

Sir PJ: I'm thinking of people who can devote time. Very meticulous about details. Good writing and people skills. Full of confidence.

(amin na lang 'yung the rest of the conversation... ) :)

Wala lang... I was just overwhelmed and touched na kahit pa-graduate na'ko, he still thought of me. And 'yung statement na WITH A CALIBER LIKE YOURS... wow, music to my ears!:) So he thinks i have good writing and people skills, as well as i'm also full of confidence? Wow! Thanks Dadi Peej!:) And the project he's talking about seems exciting. I'm having second thoughts tuloy re: directing a play for the Crossroads Theater Festival. Lord, please guide me on what to choose if ever both will push through. I won't decide by myself. I need YOUR guidance... :)

I'm in a gigil mode today... gusto ko ng baby!!! :)

By the way, here are the pics of my five favorite babies... nakakagigil!!!:)

Top 5:

I call them BABY CHINESE(kasi chinese sila e...obviously!:)



Top 4:

This is BABY DJ (baby pa lang, maabilidad na... pero parang wala s'yang alam sa ginagawa n'ya)



Top 3:

The third one is BABY HIGH (o diba, parang high sa drugs?) hehe!:)



Top 2:

He is BABY CHINKY (chinky-eyed kasi). ayaw maging alkansiya ng mata.:)



Top 1:
Of course, kung may baby chinky, meron ding BABY CHONKY (para kasing high sa tsongki ang hitsura). haha!!!:)



Grabe, i love babiesss!!! :)

by the way, these pictures are courtesy of Chestnut and Marie (gf ni Marwyn)!:)

After getting used to being a nocturnal person after those "thesis cramming" weeks, it seemed like I acquired insomnia na yata, so to get myself to sleep, i'll just answer these 40 questions that i found in my sister's documents:

1. Name: dominique rey hipolito dionisio (yes, you've read it right, rey hipolito po ang middle name ko... kakaiba 'no?)
2. Were you named after anyone? a spanish movie actress daw according to my mom
3. Do you wish on stars? no, 'coz i believe that prayers are more powerful
4. Which finger is your favourite? 'Yung maliit, particularly 'yung nasa right, kasi parang small Vigan longganisa... haha!:)
5. When did you last cry? mga 2 days ago, when i suddenly missed HIM...
6. Do you like your handwriting? not that much
7. Who is your favourite lunchmate? it depends kung nasa'n ako... sa haus, my sis kasi we could share our love stories to each other or my dad, 'coz i get to hear inspiring stories and leadership tips... sa CSB, SIO peeps of course!:)
8. Any bad habits? nail biting
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? ummm, Forbidden Sin... u familiar w/ that? (hihi!:))
10. If you were another person, would you be friends WITH you? Of course! Saya kasama si Nikki! kulit, cute pa! conceited? :)
11. Are you a daredevil? Dare? oo devil? Nope angel ako eh… hehehe, minsan to some extent
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? Yes, pero may valid reason... i just forgot what is it. usually, yung crushes ng friends ko na crush-crushan lang naman! hehe!:)
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? I'm sure meron, but i forgot na rin kung ano.
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? naku wala! kalokohan! :)
16. Do fish have feelings? Meron..cguro, they feel fishy... hehe!:) baka si nemo meron! seriously, i don't think so!
17. Are you trendy? Judge me! (slum book ba ito?) :)
18. How do you release anger? walk-out, cry, then minsan 'pag sobra na, namemersonal ako!
19. Where are your second homes? Sa Church(JCCM), OSA, SIO (ALSO cubicle), Antel condo, Cha's condo. :)
20. Do you trust others easily? Soemtimes, I have the tendency to do that
21. What was your favourite toy as a child? Tea sets, then kukuha kami ng sis ko ng dahon at lupa para may kunwaring food :)
22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? ROTC (thank God I'm a girl, i don't have to undergo that)
24. Have you ever been on radio or television? Many times... sa Sarap TV, Myx, MTV, Wazzup2, TV Patrol, New year special, etc... taray... sikat?:)
25. Do you have a journal? Obvious ba? pero aside from LJ, yup i have one before
26. Do you use sarcasm a lot? i seldom do, 'coz as much as possible, i don't wanna hurt others' feelings
28. What do you look for in a guy/girl? may vision, may leadership, bibo, sensitive, expressive, full of surprises
29. Your nickname? Nikki, Nix, Cherrie :)
30. Would you bunjee? Kung kayakap ko SIYA, why not? hehe :)
31. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? yup...kung may shoe lace... hehe!:)
32. What are you worried about right now? Love life, kasi i'm confused if i'll gonna push through with what i feel or let go of HIM na...:(
33. Do you ever wear overalls? not anymore after i turned 13 yrs. old
34. Do you think that you are strong? At times, except for some instances na nasasaktan sa love life... pero sabi nila toughie pa rin!
35. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?Cheese
36. What's your favorite color? fuschia and powder blue
37. What is your least fav. thing in the world? mga kalat sa bahay!!!
38. Are you in love w/ anyone? I think so... but I'm not yet sure actually
39. How many people have a crush on you right now? naku mahirap nang magsalita, pero meron akong kilala! yes, mag-assume ba? hehe :)
40. Who do you miss most right now? si Chestnut... layo kasi n'ya... and i miss our sensible conversations and adventures!

i met valiumeals (glenni, doe, ruffie, potch, absent: sjoni--> may sakit s'ya... get well sjoni!) at G4 today to, as usual, bond!:) we had our lunch at friday's, and pambili na sana ng 1 blouse 'yung pinangkain namin, pero okay lang, super full naman after and paminsan-minsan lang naman. we made a wish list and nagbunutan kami for our post-christmas and post-new year exchange gift for our party on jan. 8. (with a 500 budget)

ANG VALIUMEALS:


we helped glenn sell movie tickets (from citibank), so we seemed like scalpers at G4. but in fairness, i proved myself to be somehow persuasive, 'coz i was able to sell more than 15 tickets... hmmm... may future kaya ako sa business na ganito? hehe!:)

glenn and potch had to leave na for work, so only doe, ruffie and i watched SIGAW starring richard gutierrez and angel locsin. gosh... mapapasigaw ka talaga! ka-level ng feng shui... effective promise! i don't wanna tell the story muna, pero highly recommended for those who don't wanna sleep at night sa takot... haha!:)

we met sir pj, marc, pio, and toby after the movie. the former three wanted to watch SIGAW, so only toby and i watched HAPPY TOGETHER starring kris aquino and eric quizon. SRO (standing room only) na, so para kaming beggars ni toby na nakaupo sa pinakasulok na lapag ng cinema. buti carpeted, malinis, and comfortable naman kami (adventure nga e!). it wasn't that fantastic, but it's funny!:) i like the part when they grew old na, then kris told eric, "maybe we were secret lovers..."! i thought of some close guy friends... maybe, even w/o the romance and intimacy between us, secret lovers din kami... who knows?

we met chachi after watching. sir pj, pio, and marc watched ENTENG KABISOTE at greenbelt, while toby, chachi, and i ate at food choices, bonded at starbucks, then played at timezone. laugh trip si dadi tobs, ngayon lang namin s'ya nakitang gano'ng kabata... timezone pala ang weakness at bisyo n'ya! hehe!:) panalo 'yung "bangka-bangkaan" experience namin sa timezone, naiyak talaga kami sa tawa!:) dami ring nagastos ni toby sa dami ng nilaro namin, but they're all worth it, 'coz it made our night though we were a bit sleepy na!:)

i rode the taxi to go home from G4 to caloocan, which cost me P 180.00.... medyo ang sakit sa bulsa, pero okay lang... 'di naman lagi! reward ko lang for myself!:)

it was another bonding day with friends...:)

P.S. someone (a friend) makes me feel inferior... sometimes, i don't wanna be with that "friend", 'coz unlike my other friends, s'ya 'yung parang walang bilib sa'kin... nakakalungkot, pero naisip ko, bakit ba 'ko papaapekto, e isa lang naman s'ya? marami naman silang bilib sa kakayahan ko... pero nakakalungkot lang! :(

i don't feel so good right now... i dunnow why! i know i'm so blessed, esp. with people who treat me so special and who consider me as one of their best/closest friends, yet something's still bothering me. maybe because though i'm so much loved by some, i still don't feel that certain "special" treatment i want from those whom i expect to treat me that way. hirap talaga... though gasgas na 'to, pero applicable pa rin --> kung sino'ng mahal mo, s'yang ayaw sa'yo at kung sino'ng ayaw mo, s'ya 'yung nandiyan! haaay...

ay naku Nikki, ayan ka na naman! well, i'm just releasing what's inside, but I'm still thankful for all the blessings that God's showering upon me. hay naku, here i am again, naaalala lang po KITA when i feel lonely and alone. sorry for that! :(

last dec. 25, we had our Night of Praise and Worship at the church... wow! i had endured standing, dancing, and singing for almost 2 1/2 hours. i missed praising and worshipping God through singing and dancing, kasi almost 6 mos. na rin yata ako 'di nakakapag-song lead since i started to become busy in school. sometimes, i feel na ang laki ng nawala sa'kin, since i started to become kinda inactive sa church, and i feel inferior. but now that there's less pressure from school na, i wanna go back... to song leading, directing plays, writing scripts, planning events and projects, speaking, hosting, and handling cell groups for the church... most especially, i wanna go back to my Father... i'm sorry for everything, Lord! please accept your prodigal child again! :'(

I celebrated Christmas the typical, but wonderful way!:) I started my day yesterday by helping my lola in preparing our food for Noche Buena. It's been a long time since I last did that. Actually, feeling ko nga 'di na'ko napapakinabangan sa bahay since I started to become busy with school. So I was very enthusiastic in helping her out. I helped her made her forte... her very creamy fruit salad, very meaty spaghetti, and hot chocolate. The other foods are beyond my power na... so s'ya na lang. hehe!:)

Right after that, I wrapped my sis' and I's presents for our exchange gift last Christmas eve. In fairness, much more expensive and practical na ang gift namin this year than the previous years... nasanay na kami kumbaga! Then my tito raf's family fr. nueva ecija came together w/ their adopted son, Ron-ron, who's so cute! Baby na naman ito... ang saya-saya!:) Wala kasing baby sa house, so excited ako everytime he's here.

Anyway, exxag ang calories at carbo sa Noche Buena... ham, roasted chicken, hot chocolate, fruit salad, pasta, keso de bola, bread, halaya, cake... and my dad, nakakatawa... tinapa at kanin ang kinain!:) Ganyan talaga s'ya ka-deviant pagdating sa food. We were one big, happy family then... ang saya!:) My lola was there, ninang, tito raf, tita fely, ron-ron, and of course mama, papa, and my sis, dana!:)

I was very fulfilled, 'coz they all loved our gifts... kasyang-kasya lahat ng mga damit and gustong-gusto nila, esp. the bag i bought for my sis, she loved it!:) I received perfume and lots of cash!!!! Mwahaha!!!:) 'Yung gifts nila ma and pa, to follow na lang... sana celfone and mga pang-business attire, kasi malapit na'ko mag-work e.:)

O.A. sa dami ng calls and texts ang na-receive ko... I'm so glad that I'm loved by many people. I sent personal texts to the people special to me. Actually, ayoko kasi ng same texts for everyone. Gusto ko talaga, a message from the heart. I received calls and texts naman from the special people in my life... who are they? basta alam na 'yon ng mga friends ko!:)

Thanks to everyone for gracing my year... i love you!:)

P.S.
Andre told me he saw our picture sa Malacañang sa Manila Bulletin. Ando'n na naman kaming 3 nina Kristel and s'ya. Sana makabili 'ko ng issue na'yon. Once in a lifetime lang 'yon!:)

Yesterday's gift-giving event at the Malacañang palace was a very tiring, yet fulfilling experience!:) Gawd, I just had a three-hour sleep the other night, 'coz I had to wake up at 3am for our Simbang Madaling Araw (that's what we call it in our church), then go straight to CSB to meet the people I'll go to Malacañang with. There were seven of us who met in school... Len, Chachi, Dadi Tobs, Andre, Sir Peej, Pam (Norlan) and me. I thought I was late, 'coz I already arrived at 6:40 am, yun pala ako pa nauna! Pinoy nga naman!:) The CSB SC and SF officers were also there in Malacañang. We served as volunteers do'n together with the LEAP (Leaders for East Asian Progress if I remember it right) members who came from different schools. The event was an outreach program by the first gentleman, but his family and the President were also present... shempre naman... pampaganda ng image!:) So 'yun, we distributed foods and gifts, as well as we served as "bouncers" ng mga kids during the program, wherein "nakuyog" talaga kami nina Andre at Toby in front... grabe!:) Naapakan pa 'yung damit ko at napahiga talaga 'ko!:) And we had to stay under the scorching heat of the sun for almost 2 hours just to do those things. Honestly, I'm not so much into outreach projects like that, but I felt fulfilled. They were even calling me "congresswoman", 'coz I was very jolly and friendly at parang kumakandidato. Kasi, lahat ng binibigyan ko ng gifts, may free Christmas greeting pa with a smile and a tap on the back... Malay natin, magpulitika rin pala ako someday! Why not?:) Going back, grabe, I almost fell on the ground sa init at sobrang hilo. Peo okay lang, may pic naman ako with the first granddaughter Mikaela Gloria na buhat ko s'ya, kasi bigla ko tinawag nung nagpi-picture. Cute-cute n'ya!:) And sulit naman lahat ng pagod 'coz after that, we had our free lunch sa Max's Roxas Blvd... what a hearty meal... chicken of course, kare-kare, super crispy daing na bangus, sinigang na hipon, liempo, buko pandan, and bottomless iced tea! Talap-talap!:)

I had to do my rush Christmas shopping after that, so we all went to Glorietta. Humiwalay muna 'ko sa kanila for 2 hours to concentrate on my shopping... Gift-giving na kasi within the family later at 12mn, so rush na talaga ito! I bought an elegant casual bag (kahit di naman signature) for my sis, a blouse for my lola, a pair of blouse and pants for my mom, boxers and brief (Bench) for my dad, jogging pants pang-aerobics for my ninang, blouse for Tita Fely, and si Dana (my younger sis) na bahala sa gift for Tito Raf and Ron-ron. We met at U after that and kasama na namin si Mother. We accompanied Dadi Tobs in buying a Nokia 6210 unit for his SUN sim, then had our dinner at Food Choices, where Ate Che (Cha's cuz) was there. I'm so happy for Dadi Tobs, 'coz seems like super happy rin s'ya that he can finally use his SUN sim nang 'di nakiki-insert sa fone ng mom n'ya. Hehe!:)

I was too sleepy na, so Len and I had to go home. We rode the MRT to Taft 'coz ang hirap-hirap sumakay ng taxi, then jeep kami to CSB, then dun na kami nakasakay ng FX... si Len sa Fairview, ako sa Monumento. Shempre 'di ko iniwan bebe ko, kahit grabe na 'yung sakit ng paa naming dalawa. Okay lang, kasi adventure naman ika nga!:) Sa FX, Andre called me up to tell me that he saw me sa TV Patrol, kasi televised nga pala 'yung event sa Malacañang. 'Di ko na naman nakita ko sarili ko sa TV for the 3rd time... una sa Myx, then sa Wazzup2, then ngayon sa TV Patrol... tsk, sayang! hehe!:)

Naka-text ko si Chestnut nung gabi, and wawa naman, 'coz one of his first two dogs died na, and the others got thinner na and nagbubuhol-buhol na raw ang hair, 'coz wala nang nag-aalaga... iba na kasi inaalagaan ni Dadi Chestnut nila dito... hehe!:) I told him about my pic w/ Mikaela, kasi ever since, we are both fascinated with cute-cute babies... 'yung sa Seaside, sa Ayala Heights, and even the pics of babies na inupload namin sa friendster account n'ya... those super to the max cute pics really make my day!:) Kung kay Mother, "i love kanin!", sa'kin naman, "i love babies!" as in! haay... miss ko na si Chestnut! Sabi pa n'ya naninibago s'ya, kasi magkaibang-magkaiba 'pag nasa Cebu s'ya at 'pag andito s'ya... what he means are his roles, status, etc. Oh well, elaborate this na lang next time.

Basta yesterday was a great day!:) Tired, but missionS accomplished!:)

It was a nice feeling to bond with my old gurlfrnds again! My "bes" doe texted me to accompany her to buy a gift for her mom at G4, then Mother and Chachi wanted to make liwaliw rin yata, so they followed. Potchi also followed after her job interview. Doe and I met at CSB to get our grad pics! Ganda namin!:) Hehe!:) Then we went to G4 na!!! I dunnow why, but it seems like I'm not in the mood to shop for Christmas gifts for my family and friends, unlike during the previous years na 2 weeks before Christmas pa lang, ready na'ko! Maybe tomorrow na lang, kasi may gift-giving ang family namin on the eve of the 24th... crammer talaga 'ko!:) We had our merienda at Carl's Jr. Tinreat ko si Doe! We met Chachi and Potch there, and ang saya ng usapan namin... just like the old times... barahan... landian... kiligan... I miss girl bondings like those, since halos puro boy friends ang usually kasama ko the past few months.:) then ikot-ikot uli. Doe and Potch left earlier, then we met Mother at Landmark naman. Exxag ang tao, ang sikip-sikip! Pinoy talaga, late Christmas shopping na naman! We were supposed to meet Ate Marie (Chachi's cuz), 'coz I'll be singing and hosting on her wedding sa Dec. 28, but nag-overtime yata sa work, so we just went home. Ang saya lang, 'coz matagal ko nang 'di nagagawa 'to... I missed my gurlfrnds, esp. my "bes".

I just wanted to share one of the funniest YM conferences I had yesterday, Dec. 21, mga 1:00-1:30 p.m.... laugh trip talaga 'to! Ka-conference ko sina Norlan and Sjon, then I told them I have a new crush who's younger than me, then eto na 'yung nangyari... hahaha!!! Sobrang casualan lang talaga!:) We talked about how I fell in love with sjon before and how i admitted it to him. Ang nakakatawa, pinag-uusapan namin na parang wala lang nangyari. Funny talaga! Ang sarap ng feeling, kasi casualan na lang.:) At naloka ang anak ko (Norlan)!:)

Sjon has joined the conference.

weedthrob: o ano na
nikkidionisio: ok, going back...
weedthrob: pagirl c nanay
nikkidionisio: alam mo ba pam,may trivia ko syo
weedthrob: o go
nikkidionisio: ngkataon tlga puro bata nagugustuhan ko
ingenuesjon: yun nga sasabihin ko kanina b4 ako madc
nikkidionisio: dati kaya nainlove ako kay sjon...alam nya yon, dba sjon? hehe
nikkidionisio: ayaw umamin!
weedthrob: OMG
nikkidionisio: haha di mo kinaya no?
ingenuesjon: hnde ko alam
ingenuesjon: guys una na ako
nikkidionisio: uuyyy.... umarte ka, sinabi ko na syo no
ingenuesjon: cheka!!!
nikkidionisio: umarte, aalis tlga
nikkidionisio: haha... hindi na nakakibo c pam
nikkidionisio: ay... prang wla nang ng-msg hehe
ingenuesjon: hahaha
ingenuesjon: kaw kasi
weedthrob: omg.. sjon uamrte
nikkidionisio: e ano nmn? past is past no
weedthrob: korek
ingenuesjon: oo nga
weedthrob: past is past
nikkidionisio: haha...ano reaction mo pam? kinaya mo?
weedthrob: HNDE KO KNAYA!
nikkidionisio: haha!
weedthrob: kwento mo pano ka nainluv
ingenuesjon: yuck
nikkidionisio: haha... ikwento ba ?
ingenuesjon: ipakwento ba
ingenuesjon: hahaha
nikkidionisio: ano ba yan...hbang ka-conference din c sjon ?
weedthrob: carry lng yan
weedthrob: past is past da ba
nikkidionisio: i dunnow how... maybe kc lging ksma at kausap
weedthrob: so parang out of nowhere.. amy nagbloom
nikkidionisio: korek!)
ingenuesjon: nagbloom tlga
nikkidionisio: hehe... ang corny
weedthrob: haha
nikkidionisio: o diba,casualan lng
weedthrob: haha
weedthrob: e cool peeps tau e
nikkidionisio: nkktawa nga reaction ni sjon nung cnbi ko sa txt e, sbi lng nya, "tlgang may gnong factor?"
nikkidionisio: nmn...cool peeps
weedthrob: omg.. cnabi mo sa txt?
ingenuesjon: oo...inaway nya ako para masabi lang un
weedthrob: ayy
weedthrob: grabe
weedthrob: nkakaloka
ingenuesjon: mga damoves tlga ni nanay
weedthrob: ano b cnabi nay?
ingenuesjon: basta b4 that inaway nya kami ni nicole
nikkidionisio: ay ang kapal mo!
weedthrob: then?
nikkidionisio: di ko kaya pinlano yon
ingenuesjon: hhhmmm
ingenuesjon: if i know
nikkidionisio: yuck, feeling ka sjon a
ingenuesjon: nasa-diary mo yun eh
ingenuesjon: kita ko!
nikkidionisio: haha!
weedthrob: ayy haha
nikkidionisio: binasa mo? bad trip ka
ingenuesjon: ako pa
ingenuesjon: cheesmax feeder
weedthrob: ayy
nikkidionisio: shit ka tlga...oo nga pala... live journal ba?
nikkidionisio: bad trip
weedthrob: omg nabasa ang diaree
ingenuesjon: hnde...yang black diary
ingenuesjon: lol
nikkidionisio: pro di ko pinlano yon no, promise
nikkidionisio: haha... mara clara ba ito?
ingenuesjon: okie sabi mo eh
weedthrob: omg
weedthrob: mara clara amp
nikkidionisio: haha!
nikkidionisio: nkktwa tyo
weedthrob: cno c gary.. ching
nikkidionisio: yuck...gary tlga
weedthrob: haha
weedthrob: ds s so fun
ingenuesjon: cno c gary?
nikkidionisio: ah tanda ko na cnbi ko sa text anak... sbi knya kc senstive ko rw, lgi nlng me ngttampo
weedthrob: o tpos nung tnxt at nagreply c sjon? wut hppend after
nikkidionisio: c gary - ung tatay ni mara na tatay pala ni clara
ingenuesjon: hnde ko sinabi yan
nikkidionisio: sbi kc nya senstive ko rw, lgi nlng me ngttampo
ingenuesjon: yuck alam mo pa yan
nikkidionisio: so sbi ko kya lng nmn me lgi ngttmpo kc i've loved him more than a friend
nikkidionisio: shmpre no...one of highlights ng buhay ko yan
weedthrob: omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
weedthrob: my god ang lakas ng tawa ko
nikkidionisio: denial ka jan, cnbi mo kya
nikkidionisio: ako rin natatawa rito!
weedthrob: omg talaga
weedthrob: buti d nailang c sjon or wutsoeverr
ingenuesjon: sanay na ako
ingenuesjon: hahaha
nikkidionisio: nung una, ako mejo nailang, pro naicp ko wla na nmn, so ok na agd casualan
nikkidionisio: yun nga e sanay na sha
nikkidionisio: ang yabang mo, gago ka!
ingenuesjon: hahaha
nikkidionisio: grbe natatawa tlga ko dito
weedthrob: omg
weedthrob: grabe
weedthrob: ntatawa ko
weedthrob: e pno kng mutual pala ung feelings.....
nikkidionisio: pro okay yan c sjon, supportive na ngayon yan sa lovelife ko
nikkidionisio: hehe
ingenuesjon: naku...mas funny si ******
ingenuesjon: nung inamin nya like nya ako
nikkidionisio: ay.... im sure hindi!
nikkidionisio: e lagi akong inaaway nyan e
ingenuesjon: ako pa!
nikkidionisio: guys, GTG na may ggwin pa ko imp't
ingenuesjon: kj
nikkidionisio: sori tlga, nxt tym uli. sayang, saya pa nmn ng usapan
weethrob: bye nay!
nikkidionisio: bye anak
nikkidionisio: bye ex :)
ingenuesjon: nyaaa!!! :)
nikkidionisio: ex-love :)
weedthrob: ayy!!

Nikkidionisio has left the conference.

O diba, say n'yo? Only in the Philippines... only in CSB... only between sjoni and me... haha!:)

these were the old times... (ayaw mag-iba ng look ni sjoni at ayaw maging vain...hehe!:))

By the way, regarding my second to the latest previous post here titled "Gano'n Ba Talagang Kalamig Do'n?", it's not a problem anymore... we patched things up... and naparanoid lang talaga ako! Actually, our relationship with each other even got better... so much better, especially after the taxi adventure passing by Tramo na biglang naging Roxas Blvd, with the very "stupid" (sorry for the word) cab driver na pinasa pa ang lahat ng sisi sa'min. In the end, we still had a good time! And the goodbyes and i love you's were so sweet... sweeter than ever before... masarap talagang makipag-away, kasi mas sweet 'pag nagkabati na!:)

P.S.
By the way, thank you Chestnut for your gift/pasalubong --> celfone bag, celfone "palawit" :), Hongkong pen, APLYC bookmarks, and cutie chopsticks... :)

Last night's pre-Christmas dinner with SIO peeps could be added to my list of THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE!:) Being with my best set of friends in College is enough reason for me to be happy, but there are other several reasons pa... much deeper reasons... :) Anyway, we had our dinner at EBUN GB3. The food serving was small, so we weren't that satisfied, though napunan naman ng company, so we were still happy!:) There were 16 of us namely Lennskie, Chachi, Chestnut, Dadi Tobs, Ms. J, Pio, Andre, Marc Yu, Sir PJ, Rom, Jan, Alvin, Russ, Joan So, Mother, and me.:) Regarding the so many reasons why I was very happy... umm... i'll just continue this next time, okay? Hehe! :)

"Gano'n ba talagang kalamig do'n, at hanggang dito "NANLALAMIG" ka yata?" :( Seems like what I was afraid to happen already did! Nawala na yata 'yung passion… or am I just being too paranoid? Paalis pa lang siya, may kutob na'kong magkakaganito, simply because may tendency rin akong maging gano'n sometimes… what I mean with "gano'n" is the experience of having a sudden change of feelings towards someone right after a very wonderful experience with other people… pwedeng mawala, pwede rin namang mas tumindi.

In his case, the sad part is… parang nawala 'yung dating passion. :( Well, I asked the Lord for it --> the sign that will show me if our current status will bring us to something more than platonic friendship. And I guess the Lord already gave His answer, and it's a very clear NO! Sabi ko naman sa letter, whatever happens after "that", I'll accept it 'coz I know that everything is part of God's perfect plan for us… nabanggit ko 'yon, kasi nga may nafi-feel na'ko.

Nakakainis! Sabi ko naman kasi sa sarili ko, 'di ako magpapahulog sa panibago na namang mga patibong e. But the roads are so clear that it's very impossible for me to see the traps… so I thought there are no risky traps… I thought it's gonna be a smooth way out of this… e nakalimutan kong advanced na nga pala ang technology natin ngayon. Maybe there was an invisible trap all along, I just wasn't able to see it, because I was too busy walking with him. How stupid of you AGAIN, Nikki!!! Hindi ka na nadala!

Wala s'yang kasalanan, alam ko! Lagi naman e! Minsan, feeling ko lugi ako, kasi everytime they see us together or doing sweet things for each other, ang iniisip nila, ako na naman ang nafo-fall… at s'ya, wala lang… I hear the same old lines from others na, "Ganyan lang talaga 'yan sa lahat ng babae"… But what they don't see are the things that happen beyond what their two eyes can see. Pero s'yempre, 'di naman ako feeling at assuming, kaya I don't tell anything to others… ayoko ikuwento lahat, kasi baka lumabas pa 'kong another "Kate" or "VS" in the making, who makes a big deal out of every little issue. Mabuti nang itago ko na lang at obserbahan ko mag-isa, at 'pag sigurado na'ko, tsaka ko na ilabas. So to my friends who think that I don't trust you enough for me to tell you everything, I'm sorry… ayoko lang maging feeling at assuming. I'm just waiting for the right time to tell you guys… I'm sure you do understand…and I wanna thank you for that!

they usually say that there is such a thing as a middle child syndrome, 'coz that middle child is neither the favorite nor the pasaway who receives that much attention from the parents... mahirap nga sa gitna... i mean it's hard to be in the middle situation na hindi "kayo" at hindi rin naman sa ayaw n'ya sa'yo. alam mo 'yung alam mong gusto n'yo 'yung isa't-isa, but there's something that's hindering the both of you to pull off with what's in your hearts? gulo ba? it's hard to explain, pero basta ang point, it's really hard to stay in the middle, kahit 'di mo gusto do'n. please stop being so nice to me, please stop giving me so much attention, please stop telling me that i'm very special to you, please stop putting me on the top of your priorities, please stop being so sweet, if you'll never start admitting that you love me more than a friend... pinapaasa mo lang ako :'( huwag mo na sana akong pahirapan pa, kung ayaw mo sa'kin ay sabihin mo na... huwag mo na sana akong paasahin sa wala... mahal na kung mahal kita... :'(

Wow! This is one of the greatest feelings I've ever felt... TOTAL relief!:) I've been a nocturnal person for almost a week, because of my thesis, but hey nikki, it's all worth it! :) Guess what? My thesis adviser gave me a 4.0 w/o needing to defend my output to a panel!!! :) But here's the catch, we still need to polish our output and conduct a public presentation by January, wherein Arts Management students and other artists and art managers will be present. But that's better than having to deal with Ms. Roces, who is being paid just to become one of the panels for students taking up their masteral degrees abroad. Yikes, katakot 'yon diba? What we're waiting for now is the announcement of the deserving thesis that will be considered the BEST THESIS for Arts Management this year. But honestly, it's not so much of my concern. What I'm wishing for now is for my CGPA to reach 3.400, so I could graduate as Cumlaude. Last term, when Sir Chuck (of the Reg Office) checked my CGPA, it's something like 3.565, so pasok sa Cumlaude, but I was a transferee from UE, so they still have to add my grades from there. Though I got high grades there din naman, I'm not sure pa rin, so I'm kinda nervous! Pero basta, just like what I always tell my friends, EHFAR (everything happens for a reason), so I should accept whatever God's plan for me is. As of now, I just thank God I'm almost done with College. Though it somehow pains me to leave my TRUE friends in CSB, I'm happy that I'll finally be part of what they call the "real world". I know there are lots of adjustments to make, but I'll bravely face them all with the help of my Creator. Thank you so much, Jesus. Finally, my grad pic isn't just a grad pic anymore... :)



Here are some of the best of friends i'll terribly miss... huhuhu! :'(





And by the way, the Hongkong APLYC peeps were back na! I was touched 'coz Chestnut texted me right away when they came back here sa Pinas! :) I missed them... good thing we were busy rin with our thesis during those times that they weren't here.